Friday, April 28, 2017
Kindred: Ch. 1 - Bad Start
Snippets and Stories: (R) The Perfect Mistake
You seem like you're going through hard Times, so I'll tell you a story.
Do you know what it's like to be the only one who believes you can do it?
I know no one else believes in me.
There are so many who tell me to give up, that I'll just fail. And the others who don't? Who tell me they believe in me?
I ask them, "Would you bet $100 on my success?"
And they answer as is expected of social obligation, "Yes."
To which I answer, "Then will you bet those hundred dollars now? It will help me pay for school, that I may take my classes and continue on this path."
I have yet to receive even one.
There are many people who are all talk in this world. And I've no interest in false words.
But I try anyways, I'll try, try, and try again.
I'm not afraid to make mistakes, because everything I do, is a mistake. You get used to it.
But just remember.
It's okay to make mistakes, it's okay to be wrong.
It's okay, just pick yourself up, and keep trying.
Because someday, you'll get it right. Someday you'll make the perfect mistake.
Monday, April 24, 2017
Snippets and Stories: (R) Mistaken
Yet another blunder. He sneered at the charcoal smudged image. Give up while you're ahead why don't you? Wasting such fine materials to create utter garbage.
There was no denying the pathetic attempt as anything more than a waste of precious materials and Time. It was a mess, smudgy, odd shadows, misshapen forms.
Hideous, ugly, disappointing, frustrating. All of them and more.
All there was to show for my efforts was a worn out hand coated thickly with charcoal.
I let that fall to my side as I took it in. Still, it was a first step. These speed runs that our professor had us making were pitiful at best.
The only thing that could be done was to learn and get better.
But I was never able to deceive myself, and perhaps it is because of that, that I so suffered.
Talent was something that others had. Certainly, it takes dedication, practice, and whatnot, to hone one's skill, but I knew I was no competition even then. I never was.
Inside something believed in the potential, but there was something else. Oppressive as it was, or perhaps it was just life's toll.
They learned it quickly, they learned it well.
Artistic talent was something that I worked for, but never had. All of my skill, I obtained through practice, and it lacked the creative expression and character that so many others had.
Not long has my presence been, but it would be insult to say that I couldn't recognize talent when I saw it, and I saw none in mine self.
Sure, one could practice, but not everyone succeeds.
That's just the way of life. Not every comic makes the frontlines, not everyone can be amazing.
"I'm not afraid to make mistakes, because everything I do, is a mistake."
He stops whatever nonsense he is doing. Perhaps surprised by my candor.
"If I'm just going to mess up, then at least I tried."
Ah, but inside, you wonder why you tried at all.
Indeed.
"I will manage, just as I've always had."
So full of hope, and so full of emptiness.
"Has it ever been any different?"
The silence I take for an answer, and when I had thought to myself that he had gone, he replied.
Once.
I didn't ask for when that "once" was, for I needed not to hear what I already knew. Just as I didn't need to hear the plastic dollar-store encouragements that were oft passed out.
Few cared to know enough to be genuine in their words, and I cared less for those who were of falsities.
But are you not the same? You attempt to be what you are not. You have not even the abilities to achieve what is obtained through practice, not talent.
"No Neskyii, I am not. Because I believed, and still believe, that I can. I am not just doing the motions to do them."
A brave face, and a weak Heart. You are ill-suited for this path. A path you will only fail.
"Probably."
People stare as I pass and a snide voice wants to ask, "What are you staring at?"
But another voice, snider still says, "I don't care enough about them to want to know."
Was it my clothes? I had little fashion sense. Maybe the ribbon headband was too much at my age.
Or maybe it was the enormous drawing pad in one hand, duffel bag in the other, and overweight backpack.
Maybe there was something on my face.
Who knows. I didn't.
Saturday, April 22, 2017
Kindred: Prologue
Friday, April 21, 2017
Snippets and Stories: (WtI) Successor (4 of 4)
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
When all was said and done, it was as if a tremendous weight had been lifted from her. And indeed, it had quite literally, been lifted from her.
The floors of the bathroom were vividly red, a stark contrast against the sterile white tiles.
Snippets and Stories: (WtI) Successor (3 of 4)
Part 1
Part 2
Part 4
This was insane was what it was. Pure folly, yet here she was with his hair grown out again and walking down the same street late at night, a shoulder bag slung across her chest.
This Time though, it was her who was doing the hunting.
Snippets and Stories: (WtI) Successor (2 of 4)
Snippets and Stories: (WtI) Successor (1 of 4)
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
She was the successor of the Canterbury line.
When her brother fell into a deep sleep that few would ever wake from, the responsibilities fell to her, and she toiled to uphold the expectations, but always holding on to the sliver of hope that her only Family would open his eyes once more.
But the years came and went, and when they threatened to pull the plug she had taken matters into her own hands.
Snippets and Stories: (WtI) Orientation
Wednesday, April 19, 2017
Snippets and Stories: (WtI) Burgeon
Monday, April 17, 2017
Snippets and Stories: (R) The World Beyond
From past experiences from an astral's view, my eyes were likely glowing.
It's amazing, the world created within the mind's eye, and now I had the lucidity to fully appreciate it.
The raven laughs, as if the answer was obvious. And perhaps it was. My dreamself was never all that coherent.
Ah, yes. I forgot one last thing. And perhaps one of the most important.
Don't trust anyone or anything.
Snippets and Stories: (WtI) Possessed (4 of ?)
"This is just going to end up like every other attempt you've made."
"Perhaps."
His Host studied him before closing his eyes and withdrawing.
So gentle and unassuming. In the face of Silas's assertiveness he had, like a slip of paper to the wind, been brushed aside.
Silas grimaced and forced himself to relax.
Confusion flashed across the familiar face of his friend before a goofy grin spread on his lips, "It's you!"
Muspell chuckled, and his inflection gave the other pause.
"Muspell--"
"I'll never forget you."
Muspell blinked, and smiled, "Perhaps... It would be better if you had."
"To forget you would be to forget whatever 'self' is here now."
And suddenly he was staring at the face of his old friend as he towered above him. It was as if things were as they were back then.
For a moment the cold indifference sent a chill through him, and he was reminded of the true nature of the entity before him, "Nothing of the sort."
A tearful laugh broke from him, "You say that even as your form changes! How you put forth a pretense of strength if but to ease me." he reached up to trace along the temple, hand resting on the Numen's cheek, "It's Time to let go, Neiro. Release the Amphisbaena that your soul may finally know peace."
"Your Aether permits me to mingle. That I live on experiencing life as you so wished for."
The former Yggdrasill sighed, "Enough Neiro. I wont last long, the remnant that anchors my aether is almost gone." he looked Neiro in the eye, determined, "I have but the strength to see this out. Please, before my aethor has reached the limit of expenditure."
Muspell shook his head, sighing, "You keep my Aethor close, like a barbed hook that but buries itself deeper. Please Neiro, I can't rest easy, with you hurting so. And over me of all things! Can't you see what is around you now?"
The grip on his shoulder tensed, but again the Numen was impassive, "I see all."
"Yet you didn't see me."
At this Neiro faltered and something almost fearful crossed his eyes. It pained him to see his friend so uncertain, and afraid. Like a child who had lost their way, and no differently would he have to lead them into the light. It tore at the Yggdrasill to see such stark fear, how afraid Neiro was at the mere thought that they had almost missed one another. So close, yet unable to hear his plea. But the Seed pressed on, "You couldn't see me, could you? A whole morning."
No response, but he could tell the Numen was struggling. There was a ripple in his Aethor, a change as it suddenly stilled and coiled, poised, as if ready to strike, to lash out.
"..."
By his countenance they both knew. But it needed to be said.
"You have so deeply shrouded yourself in my Aethor, mimicked it so closely, that it is as if it was your own. Nay, is your own. With the small fragment within the Amphisbaena forever by your side, and so strongly did you yearn and copy, that there is nary a difference in our aether. For the aetherical signature you lack, mine own has taken place."
The look on his face had changed. And he stared up at the opal eyes, entranced by the expressions that now danced across them. Expressions he had so long ago went to great lengths to draw out of the staggering apathy.
At last there was a small nod, and the Numen raised his head to meet his gaze. What he saw there he would never forget.
Slowly he began, a gentle whisper to the winds. Gently, another rose with his and their melodies resonated.
The leaves danced in the zephyr's still, and when at last the light grew meek, did the voiceless solo trail off in a last solemn twirl.
Silas came to with his head pounding. But it wasn't to the bedroom ceiling, instead he stared uncomfortably at the stranger holding his form close.
When the form in his arms tensed, he knew his dear friend was truly gone, but even as Silas made to pull away did he cling tighter still, "Please. Just for a little."
Let me stay here but a moment longer.
A grimace crossed his face. The choice wasn't truly his to make. Contrary to the strong front, his body had grown with as the illness progressed.
He couldn't bear to pull away, to confront with his own eyes the finality of his passing. Holding the other close, he could pretend for a little longer that it was Muspell still there with him.
After the light had long gone, and only when a chill had settled in the now dark room, and a shiver passed through him, did the man reluctantly part with him.
Silas stepped back uneasily as he stared at the stranger, "Who are you."
Now that there was some distance between them he studied them carefully. His height seemed somewhat unnatural, but he didn't seem to have the same symptoms that plagued his own body.
"Oh, sorry Sy!"
The sudden change from the stern voice before startled him, more so that it was one he was all too familiar with.
And suddenly it was Neiro standing there, grinning sheepishly and rubbing at the back of his head, the astral manifestation dissipated. His flatmate tapped at his wristband, a projection of the records of his heart rate and other such information shining on the display.
"What were you doing using a projection from an astral pod?" Silas scowled, brows knit and contemplating why he felt perturbed and whether or not he should retire early that night.
"Huh. I thought you said you wanted to try out examining the vitals while maintaining Astral form and contact?" Neiro shrugged, "Y'know, testing the physical strain of maintaining superficial manipulations and all that." He glanced at the a nearby retro clock and hummed, "An hour and a half. Not bad, the strain made you black out though. I'm amazed you regained consciousness so quickly. Want me to send you the data?"
Something wasn't adding up, but the unrelenting ache in his skull wasn't letting up. The prospect of heading off early seemed rather enticing at the moment.
Eyes imploring, Neiro waited patiently, until receiving an affirmative nod, "I'll take a look at it later. I'm turning in for the night."
"Alright. Meet you downstairs." Neiro grinned and Silas gave him a nod back before dissipating.
Off he darted towards the underground.
For once dreading his arrival. The Numen closed his eyes. He could still see Muspell's gentle features and gaze, was seeing it in fact, as he turned back the hourglass.
As much as he despised feeling so, for it was unfair to Silas, he couldn't help the slight loathing and disappointment when the man would look up at him, decrepit eyes void of the warmth of the dear Ophidian.
At the least Silas would remember none of it. It was to his advantage that Muspell's aether took with it all its essence, including that which mingled with the Invalid's memories.
Thursday, April 13, 2017
Snippets and Stories: (R) Snuffed (3 of ?)
Wednesday, April 12, 2017
Snippets and Stories: (R) Snuffed (2 of ?)
The warmth dripping down my face has obscured what little vision I have left, and the world left is but that of my 3rd eye, and that of sound.
It was always like this wasn't it? Biting cold surrounding me as I groped through the darkness, searching for the warmth I had lost sight of.
Monday, April 10, 2017
Strange Place: First Stop
were spun, and spinning still. A collective of stories that may not have quite made it to the Storyboard.